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〃 said the first； 〃two；〃 the second； 〃three；〃 the third； and so on； till Charlotte went faster and faster。 One made a mistake； instantly a box on the ear； and； amid the laughter that ensued； came another box； and so on； faster and faster。 I myself came in for two。 I fancied they were harder than the rest； and felt quite delighted。 A general laughter and confusion put an end to the game long before we had counted as far as a thousand。 The party broke up into little separate knots： the storm had ceased； and I followed Charlotte into the ballroom。 On the way she said； 〃The game banished their fears of the storm。〃 I could make no reply。 〃I myself；〃 she continued； 〃was as much frightened as any of them； but by affecting courage； to keep up the spirits of the others； I forgot my apprehensions。〃 We went to the window。 It was still thundering at a distance： a soft rain was pouring down over the country； and filled the air around us with delicious odours。 Charlotte leaned forward on her arm； her eyes wandered over the scene； she raised them to the sky； and then turned them upon me； they were moistened with tears； she placed her hand on mine and said； 〃Klopstock！〃 at once I remembered the magnificent ode which was in her thoughts： I felt oppressed with the weight of my sensations； and sank under them。 It was more than I could bear。 I bent over her hand； kissed it in a stream of delicious tears； and again looked up to her eyes。 Divine Klopstock！ why didst thou not see thy apotheosis in those eyes？ And thy name so often profaned； would that I never heard it repeated！
JUNE 19。
I no longer remember where I stopped in my narrative： I only know it was two in the morning when I went to bed； and if you had been with me； that I might have talked instead of writing to you； I should； in all probability； have kept you up till daylight。
I think I have not yet related what happened as we rode home from the ball； nor have I time to tell you now。 It was a most magnificent sunrise： the whole country was refreshed； and the rain fell drop by drop from the trees in the forest。 Our companions were asleep。 Charlotte asked me if I did not wish to sleep also； and begged of me not to make any ceremony on her account。 Looking steadfastly at her； I answered； 〃As long as I see those eyes open； there is no fear of my falling asleep。〃 We both continued awake till we reached her door。 The maid opened it softly； and assured her； in answer to her inquiries； that her father and the children were well； and still sleeping。 I left her asking permission to visit her in the course of the day。 She consented； and I went； and； since that time； sun； moon； and stars may pursue their course： I know not whether it is day or night； the whole world is nothing to me。 JUNE 21。
My days are as happy as those reserved by God for his elect； and； whatever be my fate hereafter； I can never say that I have not tasted joy； the purest joy of life。 You know Walheim。 I am now completely settled there。 In that spot I am only half a league from Charlotte； and there I enjoy myself； and taste all the pleasure which can fall to the lot of man。
Little did I imagine； when I selected Walheim for my pedestrian excursions； that all heaven lay so near it。 How often in my wanderings from the hillside or from the meadows across the river； have I beheld this hunting…lodge； which now contains within it all the joy of my heart！
I have often； my dear Wilhelm； reflected on the eagerness men feel to wander and make new discoveries； and upon that secret impulse which afterward inclines them to return to their narrow circle； conform to the laws of custom； and embarrass themselves no longer with what passes around them。
It is so strange how； when I came here first； and gazed upon that lovely valley from the hillside； I felt charmed with the entire scene surrounding me。 The little wood opposite how delightful to sit under its shade！ How fine the view from that point of rock！ Then； that delightful chain of hills； and the exquisite valleys at their feet！ Could I but wander and lose myself amongst them！ I went； and returned without finding what I wished。 Distance； my friend； is like futurity。 A dim vastness is spread before our souls： the perceptions of our mind are as obscure as those of our vision； and we desire earnestly to surrender up our whole being； that it may be filled with the complete and perfect bliss of one glorious emotion。 But alas！ when we have attained our object； when the distant there becomes the present here； all is changed： we are as poor and circumscribed as ever； and our souls still languish for unattainable happiness。
So does the restless traveller pant for his native soil； and find in his own cottage； in the arms of his wife； in the affections of his children； and in the labour necessary for their support； that happiness which he had sought in vain through the wide world。
When； in the morning at sunrise； I go out to Walheim； and with my own hands gather in the garden the pease which are to serve for my dinner； when I sit down to shell them； and read my Homer during the intervals； and then； selecting a saucepan from the kitchen； fetch my own butter； put my mess on the fire； cover it up； and sit down to stir it as occasion requires； I figure to myself the illustrious suitors of Penelope； killing； dressing； and preparing their own oxen and swine。 Nothing fills me with a more pure and genuine sense of happiness than those traits of patriarchal life which； thank Heaven！ I can imitate without affectation。 Happy is it； indeed； for me that my heart is capable of feeling the same simple and innocent pleasure as the peasant whose table is covered with food of his own rearing； and who not only enjoys his meal； but remembers with delight the happy days and sunny mornings when he planted it； the soft evenings when he watered it； and the pleasure he experienced in watching its daily growth。
JUNE 29。
The day before yesterday； the physician came from the town to pay a visit to the judge。 He found me on the floor playing with Charlotte's children。 Some of them were scrambling over me； and others romped with me； and； as I caught and tickled them； they made a great noise。 The doctor is a formal sort of personage： he adjusts the plaits of his ruffles； and continually settles his frill whilst he is talking to you； and he thought my conduct beneath the dignity of a sensible man。 I could perceive this by his countenance。 But I did not suffer myself to be disturbed。 I allowed him to continue his wise conversation； whilst I rebuilt the children's card houses for them as fast as they threw them down。 He went about the town afterward； complaining that the judge's children were spoiled enough before； but that now Werther was completely ruining them。 Yes； my dear Wilhelm； nothing on this earth affects my heart so much as children。 When I look on at their doings； when I mark in the little creatures the seeds of all those virtues and qualities which they will one day find so indispensable； when I behold in the obstinate all the future firmness and constancy of a noble character； in the capricious； that levity and gaiety of temper which will carry them lightly over the dangers and troubles of life； their whole nature simple and unpolluted； then I call to mind the golden words of the Great Teacher of mankind； 〃Unless ye become like one of these！〃 And now； my friend； these children； who are our equals； whom we ought to consider as our models； we treat them as though they were our subjects。 They are allowed no will of their own。 And have we； then； none ourselves？ Whence comes our exclusive right？ Is it because we are older and more experienced？ Great God！ from the height of thy heaven thou beholdest great children and little children； and no others； and thy Son has long since declared which afford thee greatest pleasure。 But they believe in him； and hear him not； that； too； is an old story； and they train their children after their own image； etc。 Adieu； Wilhelm： I will not further bewilder myself with this subject。
JULY 1。
The consolation Charlotte can bring to an invalid I experience from my own heart； which suffers more from her absence th