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people； who were the backbone of Imperialism and Conservatism； were
temperamentally lax； much more indolent； much more sensuous； than
our deliberately virtuous Young Liberals。 I didn't want to be
reminded of that； just when I was in full effort to realise the
finer elements in their composition。 Margaret classed them and
disposed of them。 It was our incurable differences in habits and
gestures of thought coming between us again。
The desert of misunderstanding widened。 I was forced back upon
myself and my own secret councils。 For a time I went my way alone；
an unmixed evil for both of us。 Except for that Pentagram evening；
a series of talks with Isabel Rivers； who was now becoming more and
more important in my intellectual life； and the arguments I
maintained with Crupp； I never really opened my mind at all during
that period of indecisions； slow abandonments； and slow
acquisitions。
CHAPTER THE THIRD
SECESSION
1
At last； out of a vast accumulation of impressions； decision
distilled quite suddenly。 I succumbed to Evesham and that dream of
the right thing triumphant through expression。 I determined I would
go over to the Conservatives； and use my every gift and power on the
side of such forces on that side as made for educational
reorganisation； scientific research； literature； criticism； and
intellectual development。 That was in 1909。 I judged the Tories
were driving straight at a conflict with the country； and I thought
them bound to incur an electoral defeat。 I under…estimated their
strength in the counties。 There would follow； I calculated； a
period of profound reconstruction in method and policy alike。 I was
entirely at one with Crupp in perceiving in this an immense
opportunity for the things we desired。 An aristocracy quickened by
conflict and on the defensive； and full of the idea of justification
by reconstruction； might prove altogether more apt for thought and
high professions than Mrs。 Redmondson's spoilt children。 Behind the
now inevitable struggle for a reform of the House of Lords； there
would be great heart searchings and educational endeavour。 On that
we reckoned。 。 。 。
At last we talked it out to the practical pitch； and Crupp and
Shoesmith； and I and Gane； made our definite agreement together。 。 。 。
I emerged from enormous silences upon Margaret one evening。
She was just back from the display of some new musicians at the
Hartsteins。 I remember she wore a dress of golden satin； very rich…
looking and splendid。 About her slender neck there was a rope of
gold…set amber beads。 Her hair caught up and echoed and returned
these golden notes。 I； too； was in evening dress； but where I had
been escapes me；some forgotten dinner； I suppose。 I went into her
room。 I remember I didn't speak for some moments。 I went across to
the window and pulled the blind aside； and looked out upon the
railed garden of the square； with its shrubs and shadowed turf
gleaming pallidly and irregularly in the light of the big electric
standard in the corner。
〃Margaret；〃 I said； 〃I think I shall break with the party。〃
She made no answer。 I turned presently； a movement of enquiry。
〃I was afraid you meant to do that；〃 she said。
〃I'm out of touch；〃 I explained。 〃Altogether。〃
〃Oh！ I know。〃
〃It places me in a difficult position；〃 I said。
Margaret stood at her dressing…table； looking steadfastly at herself
in the glass； and with her fingers playing with a litter of
stoppered bottles of tinted glass。 〃I was afraid it was coming to
this；〃 she said。
〃In a way；〃 I said； 〃we've been allies。 I owe my seat to you。 I
couldn't have gone into Parliament。 。 。 。〃
〃I don't want considerations like that to affect us；〃 she
interrupted。
There was a pause。 She sat down in a chair by her dressing…table；
lifted an ivory hand…glass； and put it down again。
〃I wish；〃 she said； with something like a sob in her voice； 〃it were
possible that you shouldn't do this。〃 She stopped abruptly； and I
did not look at her； because I could feel the effort she was making
to control herself。
〃I thought；〃 she began again； 〃when you came into Parliament〃
There came another silence。 〃It's all gone so differently；〃 she
said。 〃Everything has gone so differently。〃
I had a sudden memory of her； shining triumphant after the
Kinghampstead election； and for the first time I realised just how
perplexing and disappointing my subsequent career must have been to
her。
〃I'm not doing this without consideration；〃 I said。
〃I know；〃 she said； in a voice of despair； 〃I've seen it coming。
ButI still don't understand it。 I don't understand how you can go
over。〃
〃My ideas have changed and developed；〃 I said。
I walked across to her bearskin hearthrug； and stood by the mantel。
〃To think that you；〃 she said； 〃you who might have been leader〃
She could not finish it。 〃All the forces of reaction；〃 she threw
out。
〃I don't think they are the forces of reaction；〃 I said。 〃I think I
can find work to dobetter work on that side。〃
〃Against us！〃 she said。 〃As if progress wasn't hard enough！ As if
it didn't call upon every able man！〃
〃I don't think Liberalism has a monopoly of progress。〃
She did not answer that。 She sat quite still looking in front of
her。 〃WHY have you gone over？〃 she asked abruptly as though I had
said nothing。
There came a silence that I was impelled to end。 I began a stiff
dissertation from the hearthrug。 〃I am going over； because I think
I may join in an intellectual renascence on the Conservative side。
I think that in the coming struggle there will be a partial and
altogether confused and demoralising victory for democracy； that
will stir the classes which now dominate the Conservative party into
an energetic revival。 They will set out to win back； and win back。
Even if my estimate of con…temporary forces is wrong and they win；
they will still be forced to reconstruct their outlook。 A war
abroad will supply the chastening if home politics fail。 The effort
at renascence is bound to come by either alternative。 I believe I
can do more in relation to that effort than in any other connexion
in the world of politics at the present time。 That's my case；
Margaret。〃
She certainly did not grasp what I said。 〃And so you will throw
aside all the beginnings； all the beliefs and pledges〃 Again her
sentence remained incomplete。 〃I doubt if even； once you have gone
over； they will welcome you。〃
〃That hardly matters。〃
I made an effort to resume my speech。
〃I came into Parliament； Margaret；〃 I said； 〃a little prematurely。
StillI suppose it was only by coming into Parliament that I could
see things as I do now in terms of personality and imaginative
range。 。 。 。〃 I stopped。 Her stiff； unhappy； unlistening silence
broke up my disquisition。
〃After all；〃 I remarked； 〃most of this has been implicit in my
writings。〃
She made no sign of admission。
〃What are you going to do？〃 she asked。
〃Keep my seat for a time and make the reasons of my breach clear。
Then either I must resign orprobably this new Budget will lead to
a General Election。 It's evidently meant to strain the Lords and
provoke a quarrel。〃
〃You might； I think； have stayed to fight for the Budget。〃
〃I'm not；〃 I said； 〃so keen against the Lords。〃
On that we halted。
〃But what are you going to do？〃 she asked。
〃I shall make my quarrel over some points in the Budget。 I can't
quite tell you yet where my chance will come。 Then I shall either
resign my seator if things drift to dissolution I shall stand
again。〃
〃It's political suicide。〃
〃Not altogether。〃
〃I can't imagine you out of Parliament again。 It's just likelike
un