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before me to distil such wisdom as I can； as Machiavelli in his
exile sought to do； from the things I have learnt and felt during
the career that has ended now in my divorce。
I climbed high and fast from small beginnings。 I had the mind of my
party。 I do not know where I might not have ended； but for this red
blaze that came out of my unguarded nature and closed my career for
ever。
CHAPTER THE SECOND
BROMSTEAD AND MY FATHER
1
I dreamt first of states and cities and political things when I was
a little boy in knickerbockers。
When I think of how such things began in my mind； there comes back
to me the memory of an enormous bleak room with its ceiling going up
to heaven and its floor covered irregularly with patched and
defective oilcloth and a dingy mat or so and a 〃surround〃 as they
call it； of dark stained wood。 Here and there against the wall are
trunks and boxes。 There are cupboards on either side of the
fireplace and bookshelves with books above them； and on the wall and
rather tattered is a large yellow…varnished geological map of the
South of England。 Over the mantel is a huge lump of white coral
rock and several big fossil bones； and above that hangs the portrait
of a brainy gentleman； sliced in half and displaying an interior of
intricate detail and much vigour of coloring。 It is the floor I
think of chiefly； over the oilcloth of which； assumed to be land；
spread towns and villages and forts of wooden bricks； there are
steep square hills （geologically； volumes of Orr's CYCLOPAEDIA OF
THE SCIENCES） and the cracks and spaces of the floor and the bare
brown surround were the water channels and open sea of that
continent of mine。
I still remember with infinite gratitude the great…uncle to whom I
owe my bricks。 He must have been one of those rare adults who have
not forgotten the chagrins and dreams of childhood。 He was a
prosperous west of England builder； including my father he had three
nephews； and for each of them he caused a box of bricks to be made
by an out…of…work carpenter； not the insufficient supply of the
toyshop； you understand； but a really adequate quantity of bricks
made out of oak and shaped and smoothed； bricks about five inches by
two and a half by one； and half…bricks and quarter…bricks to
correspond。 There were hundreds of them； many hundreds。 I could
build six towers as high as myself with them； and there seemed quite
enough for every engineering project I could undertake。 I could
build whole towns with streets and houses and churches and citadels；
I could bridge every gap in the oilcloth and make causeways over
crumpled spaces （which I feigned to be morasses）； and on a keel of
whole bricks it was possible to construct ships to push over the
high seas to the remotest port in the room。 And a disciplined
population； that rose at last by sedulous begging on birthdays and
all convenient occasions to well over two hundred； of lead sailors
and soldiers； horse； foot and artillery； inhabited this world。
Justice has never been done to bricks and soldiers by those who
write about toys。 The praises of the toy theatre have been a common
theme for essayists； the planning of the scenes； the painting and
cutting out of the caste； penny plain twopence coloured； the stink
and glory of the performance and the final conflagration。 I had
such a theatre once； but I never loved it nor hoped for much from
it； my bricks and soldiers were my perpetual drama。 I recall an
incessant variety of interests。 There was the mystery and charm of
the complicated buildings one could make； with long passages and
steps and windows through which one peeped into their intricacies；
and by means of slips of card one could make slanting ways in them；
and send marbles rolling from top to base and thence out into the
hold of a waiting ship。 Then there were the fortresses and gun
emplacements and covered ways in which one's soldiers went。 And
there was commerce； the shops and markets and store…rooms full of
nasturtium seed； thrift seed； lupin beans and suchlike provender
from the garden； such stuff one stored in match…boxes and pill…
boxes； or packed in sacks of old glove fingers tied up with thread
and sent off by waggons along the great military road to the
beleaguered fortress on the Indian frontier beyond the worn places
that were dismal swamps。 And there were battles on the way。
That great road is still clear in my memory。 I was given； I forget
by what benefactor； certain particularly fierce red Indians of lead
I have never seen such soldiers sinceand for these my father
helped me to make tepees of brown paper； and I settled them in a
hitherto desolate country under the frowning nail…studded cliffs of
an ancient trunk。 Then I conquered them and garrisoned their land。
（Alas！ they died； no doubt through contact with civilisationone my
mother trod onand their land became a wilderness again and was
ravaged for a time by a clockwork crocodile of vast proportions。）
And out towards the coal…scuttle was a region near the impassable
thickets of the ragged hearthrug where lived certain china Zulus
brandishing spears； and a mountain country of rudely piled bricks
concealing the most devious and enchanting caves and several mines
of gold and silver paper。 Among these rocks a number of survivors
from a Noah's Ark made a various； dangerous； albeit frequently
invalid and crippled fauna； and I was wont to increase the
uncultivated wildness of this region further by trees of privet…
twigs from the garden hedge and box from the garden borders。 By
these territories went my Imperial Road carrying produce to and fro；
bridging gaps in the oilcloth； tunnelling through Encyclopaedic
hillsone tunnel was three volumes longdefended as occasion
required by camps of paper tents or brick blockhouses； and ending at
last in a magnificently engineered ascent to a fortress on the
cliffs commanding the Indian reservation。
My games upon the floor must have spread over several years and
developed from small beginnings； incorporating now this suggestion
and now that。 They stretch； I suppose； from seven to eleven or
twelve。 I played them intermittently； and they bulk now in the
retrospect far more significantly than they did at the time。 I
played them in bursts； and then forgot them for long periods；
through the spring and summer I was mostly out of doors； and school
and classes caught me early。 And in the retrospect I see them all
not only magnified and transfigured； but fore…shortened and confused
together。 A clockwork railway； I seem to remember； came and went；
one or two clockwork boats； toy sailing ships that； being keeled；
would do nothing but lie on their beam ends on the floor； a
detestable lot of cavalrymen； undersized and gilt all over； given me
by a maiden aunt； and very much what one might expect from an aunt；
that I used as Nero used his Christians to ornament my public
buildings； and I finally melted some into fratricidal bullets； and
therewith blew the rest to flat splashes of lead by means of a brass
cannon in the garden。
I find this empire of the floor much more vivid and detailed in my
memory now than many of the owners of the skirts and legs and boots
that went gingerly across its territories。 Occasionally； alas！ they
stooped to scrub； abolishing in one universal destruction the slow
growth of whole days of civilised development。 I still remember the
hatred and disgust of these catastrophes。 Like Noah I was given
warnings。 Did I disregard them； coarse red hands would descend；
plucking garrisons from fortresses and sailors from ships； jumbling
them up in their wrong boxes； clumsily so that their rifles and
swords were broken； sweeping the splendid curves of the Imperial
Road into heaps of ruins； casting the jungl