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death sang all about one； joys and fears on such a scale； in such an
intricacy as never Greek nor Roman knew。 The interminable
procession of horse omnibuses went lumbering past； bearing countless
people we knew not whence； we knew not whither。 Hansoms clattered；
foot passengers jostled one； a thousand appeals of shop and boarding
caught the eye。 The multi…coloured lights of window and street
mingled with the warm glow of the declining day under the softly
flushing London skies； the ever…changing placards； the shouting
news…vendors； told of a kaleidoscopic drama all about the globe。
One did not realise what had happened to us； but the voice of Topham
was suddenly drowned and lost； he and his minute； remote
gesticulations。 。 。 。
That submerged and isolated curriculum did not even join on to
living interests where it might have done so。 We were left
absolutely to the hints of the newspapers； to casual political
speeches； to the cartoons of the comic papers or a chance reading of
some Socialist pamphlet for any general ideas whatever about the
huge swirling world process in which we found ourselves。 I always
look back with particular exasperation to the cessation of our
modern history at the year 1815。 There it pulled up abruptly； as
though it had come upon something indelicate。 。 。 。
But； after all； what would Topham or Flack have made of the huge
adjustments of the nineteenth century？ Flack was the chief
cricketer on the staff； he belonged to that great cult which
pretends that the place of this or that county in the struggle for
the championship is a matter of supreme importance to boys。 He
obliged us to affect a passionate interest in the progress of county
matches； to work up unnatural enthusiasms。 What a fuss there would
be when some well…trained boy； panting as if from Marathon； appeared
with an evening paper！ 〃I say； you chaps； Middlesex all out for a
hundred and five！〃
Under Flack's pressure I became； I confess； a cricket humbug of the
first class。 I applied myself industriously year by year to
mastering scores and averages； I pretended that Lords or the Oval
were the places nearest Paradise for me。 （I never went to either。）
Through a slight mistake about the county boundary I adopted Surrey
for my loyalty； though as a matter of fact we were by some five
hundred yards or so in Kent。 It did quite as well for my purposes。
I bowled rather straight and fast； and spent endless hours acquiring
the skill to bowl Flack out。 He was a bat in the Corinthian style；
rich and voluminous； and succumbed very easily to a low shooter or
an unexpected Yorker； hut usually he was caught early by long leg。
The difficulty was to bowl him before he got caught。 He loved to
lift a ball to leg。 After one had clean bowled him at the practice
nets one deliberately gave him a ball to leg just to make him feel
nice again。
Flack went about a world of marvels dreaming of leg hits。 He has
been observed； going across the Park on his way to his highly
respectable club in Piccadilly； to break from profound musings into
a strange brief dance that ended with an imaginary swipe with his
umbrella； a roofer； over the trees towards Buckingham Palace。 The
hit accomplished； Flack resumed his way。
Inadequately instructed foreigners would pass him in terror；
needlessly alert。
6
These schoolmasters move through my memory as always a little
distant and more than a little incomprehensible。 Except when they
wore flannels； I saw them almost always in old college caps and
gowns； a uniform which greatly increased their detachment from the
world of actual men。 Gates； the head； was a lean loose…limbed man；
rather stupid I discovered when I reached the Sixth and came into
contact with him； but honest； simple and very eager to be liberal…
minded。 He was bald； with an almost conical baldness； with a
grizzled pointed beard； small featured and； under the stresses of a
Zeitgeist that demanded liberality； with an expression of puzzled
but resolute resistance to his own unalterable opinions。 He made a
tall dignified figure in his gown。 In my junior days he spoke to me
only three or four times； and then he annoyed me by giving me a
wrong surname； it was a sore point because I was an outsider and not
one of the old school families； the Shoesmiths； the Naylors； the
Marklows； the Tophams； the Pevises and suchlike； who came generation
after generation。 I recall him most vividly against the background
of faded brown book…backs in the old library in which we less
destructive seniors were trusted to work； with the light from the
stained…glass window falling in coloured patches on his face。 It
gave him the appearance of having no colour of his own。 He had a
habit of scratching the beard on his cheek as he talked； and he used
to come and consult us about things and invariably do as we said。
That； in his phraseology； was 〃maintaining the traditions of the
school。〃
He had indeed an effect not of a man directing a school； but of a
man captured and directed by a school。 Dead and gone Elizabethans
had begotten a monster that could carry him about in its mouth。
Yet being a man； as I say； with his hair a little stirred by a
Zeitgeist that made for change； Gates did at times display a
disposition towards developments。 City Merchants had no modern
side； and utilitarian spirits were carping in the PALL MALL GAZETTE
and elsewhere at the omissions from our curriculum； and particularly
at our want of German。 Moreover； four classes still worked
together with much clashing and uproar in the old Big Hall that had
once held in a common tumult the entire school。 Gates used to come
and talk to us older fellows about these things。
〃I don't wish to innovate unduly；〃 he used to say。 But we ought to
get in some German； you know；for those who like it。 The army men
will be wanting it some of these days。〃
He referred to the organisation of regular evening preparation for
the lower boys in Big Hall as a 〃revolutionary change；〃 but he
achieved it； and he declared he began the replacement of the hacked
wooden tables； at which the boys had worked since Tudor days； by
sloping desks with safety inkpots and scientifically adjustable
seats； 〃with grave misgivings。〃 And though he never birched a boy
in his life； and was； I am convinced； morally incapable of such a
scuffle； he retained the block and birch in the school through all
his term of office； and spoke at the Headmasters' Conference in
temperate approval of corporal chastisement； comparing it； dear
soul！ to the power of the sword。 。 。 。
I wish I could； in some measure and without tediousness； convey the
effect of his discourses to General Assembly in Big Hall。 But that
is like trying to draw the obverse and reverse of a sixpence worn to
complete illegibility。 His tall fine figure stood high on the days；
his thoughtful tenor filled the air as he steered his hazardous way
through sentences that dragged inconclusive tails and dropped
redundant prepositions。 And he pleaded ever so urgently； ever so
finely； that what we all knew for Sin was sinful； and on the whole
best avoided altogether； and so went on with deepening notes and
even with short arresting gestures of the right arm and hand； to
stir and exhort us towards goodness； towards that modern；
unsectarian goodness； goodness in general and nothing in particular；
which the Zeitgeist seemed to indicate in those transitional years。
7
The school never quite got hold of me。 Partly I think that was
because I was a day…boy and so freer than most of the boys； partly
because of a temperamental disposition to see things in my own way
and have my private dreams； partly because I was a little
antagonised by the family traditions that ran through the school。 I